Session 378

(SESSION 378 (DELETED)]

[NOVEMBER 8, 1967 9:39 PM WEDNESDAY]

(This session is deleted from the record.)

(Today while relaxing, Jane received two impressions, both somewhat worrisome, that we hoped Seth would cover tonight.)

(Last night Jane woke me up shouting in pain, because of a cramp in her back, momentarily. We wanted Seth to discuss this also.)

(It will be recalled that I had my excellent pendulum session last Sunday, November 5, pinpointing the part I played in Jane's symptoms.

Using the pendulum each day since then, I have been surprised to note a rapid change in some inner attitudes. I wanted to know if these changes, from negative to positive, were legitimate, and possible in such a short time.)

[(Jane began speaking in trance this evening at a slower rate that usual.)

Good evening.

(Good evening, Seth.)

Now. There is a point when you can take advantage of certain information, understand and perceive it. You always have the information but you must grow up to it, so to speak.

You are both at such a point now. You had both gone astray, and you are making necessary corrections. A complete overhaul was necessary of your attitudes, emotions and goals.

The book I recommended will be of great benefit (Psycho-Cybernetics) . However, it would not have been nearly as helpful earlier for you would have accepted it in a surface manner.

Much of the inner meaning would not have registered. You would have thought it a surface book, because you would not have understood clearly the premises beneath. This means obviously that you must be at a articular stage of development before the author's suggested techniques will be of any great benefit.

At your point of development now they will be extremely helpful, and do not be deceived at their seeming simplicity. This also means of course that the author does not realize much that must go on underneath before his suggested techniques will work.

Ruburt is particularly now ready and able to start anew, and he has already done so. It should be realized however that this starting anew is also a relative term, dependent upon other beneficial initiations that have been going on for several months, and that make this final---in this phase---start possible. (One minute pause.)

The steps given in the book for activating the aid of the inner self are excellent. Make certain that your idea of success is not merely financial, or concerned overly with the acquisition of the material objects that you do not now have.

It may seem to you (Jane pointed to me) that this would not be the case, and that the caution is unnecessary. A part of you, however, does strongly resent the material benefits that you did derive from your early commercial work. There is a bitterness picked up from your family, working here. It is so well hidden that it has gone almost unrecognized. This is apart from your conflicting ideas concerning success, but colors them.

At times it masquerades as a distaste for material possessions, but often it is simply also resentment. In secret parts of yourself this does cause some considerable bitterness that works to your disadvantage.

(Long pause.) You have been afraid of success for the reasons stated, yet resentful that you did not have the material acquisitions that go with it. (Pause.)

This resulted in an active resentment against such symbols, which actually prevented you from acquiring them. Although at times you would consciously want them, the hidden bitterness intruded. You know, I am sure, that if you are successful as a person and as an artist, then financial success will follow.

I am trying to tell you that you have concentrated as strongly [at times] in a negative manner on success symbols (pause) , as others might in a positive manner to acquire them. In either case the focus upon success symbols was there. I do not believe you were aware of this. Instead of course the concentration should be upon fulfilling your abilities, all of them, and financial success will come.

Indeed, you should expect it. You were almost putting the cart before the horse, but in a negative manner. The outflow of energy, the freeing of energy, into your work, automatically is determined by a general outflow of energy through all facets of your personality, that will automatically bring many different kinds of benefits, including financial ones.

Again, the particular methods given in the book are excellent, as applied processes to release your abilities. You will both literally be astonished at the changes for the better in your situations, if you follow the book's instructions, with the variations and suggestions given by me. Once more, those methods would not have worked for you in the past.

Much work has been done, you see. The author does not realize how much is necessary before his methods will have the effect that he expects.

You have been able to reason with your subconscious, of late, and get through to it, because with the pendulum and through our sessions we have been able to unscramble the uncertain state in which it found itself. This is the point missed by the author.

You have made strides since Sunday. The communication system has been cleared sufficiently. The author you see does not completely understand the work that must be done in this respect before his methods will have great value. We have cleared the communication channels both privately in your individual cases, and your joint communication systems as you operate together.

In any relationship that must be done.

Now. Ruburt was simply kicking up a fuss last night (with Jane's back cramps) . Physically, he had begun to use muscles in a more normal manner, and to activate some muscles that he had hardly used for some time.

On a physical level only, there were then some strains and tensions, fairly normal under the circumstances. On deeper levels however there was conflict, and normal enough rebellion considering the situation.

(Pause.) The part of the self who considered the symptoms necessary, you see, has realized they are no longer necessary, but still some habit persists.

An unfortunate grouping of habits operating through the body are breaking up. Originally they had a purpose. It now no longer exists, but they still resent the breaking up; and Ruburt's yells, quite involuntary, represented in fact the death throes of the symptoms, and the part of the self who had accepted them as an attempt to solve roblems.

It was a rather frightening experience, but without it or without something very much like it, complete recovery could not occur.

You may take your break.

(10:22---10:23. Jane said she had a peculiar feeling of sadness at the above information. I then wondered aloud at the apparent suddenness of the breakup of symptoms, just three days after my pendulum session of last Sunday, and two days after the session with Seth on Monday, November 6. This brought Seth back at once.)

You can hardly call this rapid.

That grouping has been disintegrating since the crisis point last winter. The death of that grouping is now a fact. The body must still stabilize itself however, and consolidate its gains.

There are still some lingerings of mourning, for the grouping was indeed vital, and adopted initially to help the personality. The grouping was doomed to failure, in that it could not succeed in helping the ersonality, you see, but hindered it.

When it realized this , then all nourishment was cut off.

Not only did other elements of the personality begin to deny it energy, but it---this grouping ---also committed suicide, so to speak, sacrificing itself for the whole personality which it tried to serve.

Now you may take your break.

(10:28. Jane had delivered the above dialogue with her eyes wide open and very dark. She had been farther out, she said. Now she felt "real weird," she said, understanding, sad, yet glad also. The feeling was like the feeling she had experienced last night when she had cried out because of the back cramps, she said.]

(10:36.) Now. The death of the old grouping now allows for the birth of a new grouping, this time a grouping that will effectively deal with the problems at hand, and that will allow the personality to develop and expand. The instructions in the book will help guide the formation of this new grouping.

Give us a moment. (Pause, long.) The telegram impression is legitimate. The telegram may or may not be received by you, but having to do with family, yours or Ruburt's, I am not sure. Or it will be received by one of your family or Ruburt's. (Pause.)

The uterus (pause) impression had to do with Vivian (Crowder) I believe (pause) , and Ruburt picked it up from your mother, who is not consciously aware of the knowledge.

(Pause.) A harmless cyst. Perhaps six months involved here.

It's importance simply being the result of a previous operation. No danger involved.

(The above are the two impressions Jane received while relaxing today.)

Ruburt is doing well with the exercises (in Psycho-Cybernetics) and will improve. You may now as you like end the session or ask any questions as you prefer.

(In the light of the recent information, do you want to say something about the role of the conscientious self?)

What we have said concerning this is still legitimate, as of the time we gave the information.

Communication has improved, and this portion of the personality has changed the direction it followed previously, and is highly active now in initiating this new program. The sense of direction pleases it, and it takes off with all the energy of a convert. (Smile; much amused.)

This is all to the good. It is relinquishing its former rigidity. It approves of this new book because God is taken into consideration, and yet it is not cultist in its terms.

(In the terms of the overly conscientious self, Seth said in answer to my question.)

It is aiding in this new impetus, and will find itself rejuvenated. It always releases the spontaneous self under such conditions, and experiences a refreshing new spiritual birth itself. (Pause.)

Within a very short time now the two will be joining full energy, with fresh purpose. The body experiences more and more release. The pressure is turning swiftly off. Energy is being released for constructive action.

This will automatically build up Ruburt's resources and inner psychic defenses against negative influences. We will have more to say concerning your (meaning me) symptoms at our next session, and offer specific suggestions; the exercises and the book should now help you rid yourself of these.

(I now expect them to disappear.)

If you have no more questions we will end, though I am willing to continue if you wish.

(Did Jane know about the death of Otto Binder's daughter?)

She did know, and so did you. Ruburt will not therefore experience another episode like last night's. My heartiest wishes then (smile) for your joint success.

("Good night, Seth.")

(10:54. Jane was fairly well dissociated, etc. We learned about the death of Otto's daughter Mary, on a conscious level, this week when we bought a recent book by Otto on flying saucers, and read the dedication.

The book was published in March 1967. In the "old days" I drew many a comic-book story by Otto.)